Disarm You With a Smile

Ok peoples. I have much things to say. And iffin ya don't like it. Don't effin read.

Ok, warnings dispensed with? Good. IN order:

Fandom
I have an Africander piece due in TWO DAYS, count em, people. The nineteenth is just two days away. What do I have written? One full chapter. ONE. I know what I want to do with it, about how long it's going to be. But I can't seem to sit down and write the frakkin' story! (did y'all catch the BSG reference there?)

What is demanding to be written? My Xander/Dawn, Xander/Spike piece that will be a continuation of my ficlet Faded. That one is always on my mind. ALWAYS. Like, Dawn is in the back of my head screaming for her Xander, but Spike is sitting in the hallway at his front door, human, slightly crazy and totally alone. I've GOT to get that bitch written before it wears a hole in my brain.

What else? OH like there's not more??? Yeah. Got 15 little Xander ficlets left to finish - luckily there's no deadline on those. And to top off the whole damn mess? I'm gettin into the SGA fandom. Why? Because Rodney is SO DAMN IN LOVE with John. Yeah. I'm talkin unrepentant love. Why else was he bitin the heads off EVERYBODY ON ATLANTIS when John was stuck in that time differential for the Ancients??? And Ronon? come on, that bohemeth of a man is just down right brutiful. (NOT a typo!) So, basically? I'm screwed fandom wise.

Real Life
So. I'm sittin at the puter this afternoon researching what I need to do to become a certified Teacher in Florida. Yah. Contradictory much? I'm 30 damn years old. I have two degrees, and I can't teach because I have no idea WHICH protocol I need to follow to become certified. I work part time in a college library. What that means? No benefits. Hourly pay. and I'm poor AGAIN. This is bullshit.

I'm emailin with two gentlemen from my area whom I met through Yahoo. Unfortunately, the one I like better so far is in - get this crap! - Iraq! He's a National Guardsman who's serving his TDY as a prison guard looking after detainees in Baghdad. The other dude makes - according to his profile - beaucoup dinero but other than that I have no idea what he does. I've agree to let him call me. We'll see how that works out. Honestly, though, I hope the NG dude emails me back. He's cool.

Bad Hair
I colored my hair about four aor five weeks ago. No wait, longer. End of November. I went with a darker color than I normally do and it looked good for a while. Here's the kicker. For about two years now, I've been getting regular highlights. Maybe 6 or 7 foils at a time at the front of my hair - bangs, sides, close to my face. Well. The last set of highligts I got, the lady, who was not my regular colorist, used a toner on my hair (which strips out the color) then put on a really light blonde. We're talking icy pale hightlights here. Ok, fine. When my hair was lighter it looked really good. Unfortunately, the toner followed by the highlights then followed by this new color have thoroughly and completely dried out the ends of my hair. We're talking burnt city. Which is odd, because it had been nearly 8 months since I had that highlight tx done.

Now, my hair looks like complete and utter crap, no matter what I do with it. and, AND it's falling out in handfulls (which I think has more to do with my 8 wk period than the coloring processes). So yeah. I've been having a pretty crappy time of it the last couple of weeks. Blech.


Thank you for listening to this bitch post. We now return you to your regularly scheduled LJ programming. This has been a test of the emergency bitchfest station. If this had been a real emergency, you'd be reading Michelle's arrest warrant.